Learning how to be ordinary

Have you ever gotten tired of working?
Good. So now it is my turn.

An endless-like conflict

Different from what most people feel, Fridays evenings are always kind of depressing for me. Maybe it's because another week has passed by. Maybe it's because since I started working on Saturdays, I've been avoiding going out on Fridays. Maybe it's both.

I don't know, perhaps I'm just getting old and that is part of life. However, sometimes I look at my life and think whether I've been enjoying it as I ought to or not. Ever since I started working, I get myself sparing thoughts about this matter. I don't hang out as much as I should. I don't date as much as I should. I don't make friends as much as I should. I don't even try to keep the ones I have as much as I should.

The truth is that I have to make a decision. I cannot go on living like this. I just can't. It seems everything is going wrong.
On the other hand, how is it possible for a person to study, be professionally succesful and enjoy life at the same time?


It all seems confusing.

Good news, bad news

Well, at least now I am CAE certified.

But the problem is: how am I ever going to be ready to take that bloody CPE exam?


Sometimes I fear I just don't know anything.

Tempo de avaliar; momento de crescer

Acampamento de carnaval é sempre a mesma coisa. A gente espera ansiosamente por ele, dorme pouco, se cansa absurdamente e faz muitas promessas a Deus. Não tem como evitar esse 'contato' mais forte com Deus já que estamos cercados por gente com a mesma fé que a nossa e ouvindo constantemente sobre o amor dEle (diferentemente do que acontece no nosso dia a dia).

Mas vamos falar sobre as promessas que fazemos. Não só as que fazemos em época de acampamentos, como também nos finais de ano, com a esperança de um ano melhor. E hoje, dois dias de volta do acampamento e mais de um mês depois da virada de ano, pergunto-me: quanto tempo demorará para nos darmos conta de que, a longo prazo, não cumprimos nenhuma?

Pensei nisso nesta terça que se passou (05/02). Durante o último culto, o grupo de louvor tocou uma música feita um tempo atrás por um dos jovens da minha igreja.
Um pedaço do refrão é:

Unidos na missão de como igreja crescermos em amor
Unidos na missão de sermos reconhecidos pelo amor

Lembro-me que 3 anos atrás, em um acampamento também, essa música foi muito importante para minha vida. OK, 3 carnavais se passaram e... nada.

A lesson from a little girl

I have just read an article entitled Food warnings amid China freeze.

The world's weather is changing by leaps and bounds, and that is really noticeable here where I live. It is January, for Christ's sake, and the temperature is down low in São Paulo. We should be resting on our beautiful Brazilian coast, swimming in our seas, or even in a pool. Yet, we are here facing the winds of a July-like cold weather and having to wear winter coats.

I will not lie. I am scared to death of what the world is going to be. The population always puts the whole blame on the governments. But let us think for a while. Who, in the first place, voted them for power? Who are the ones who daily destroy the environment? Who are the ones who waste water while taking a shower or even brushing our teeth? The answer is pretty obvious: not only are they to be blamed, but we as well.

There is a very famous video of a Canadian girl named Severn Suzuki who taught the world a big lesson in Rio de Janeiro, during the conferences of ECO 92. Here it is, it is worth taking a look once again:

http://xpock.com.br/2007/06/12/severn-suzuki-discursando-na-eco-92-veja-o-video-completo-vale-a-pena


It is a shame,though, that little has changed in 16 years.

Mere Christianity

I am tired of ordinary Christians. Sick of them. Their self-centeredness gets on my nerves. Today I was taking a look at Westboro Baptist Church and I got really upset when I read that "The small church runs numerous websites such as GodHatesFags.com,[1] GodHatesAmerica.com and others expressing condemnation of lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender people (LGBT), Roman Catholics, Muslims and Jews, as well as populations it believes are supporting the forementioned groups, including Swedes, Canadians, Irish, British, and Americans." When a non-Christian reads a text like this one, or like this one, he or she will certainly think that Christians are totally narrow-minded. No one could ever blame them.

However, the Bible itself shows us that God is not a people hater whatsoever.
In Ephesians 4:32 it is written: Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

God, unlike some would say, is not a hater. He is a God of love and compassion.
Thus, when I say I am sick of them, I mean it. It is sad for me to see how people have misinterpreted the Bible and God himself. Being a Christian is way more than taking care of other people's lives. It is way more than seeing the devil in every kind of situation. It is way more than all this kind of crap. Being a Christian is trying to understand God and His greatness. That is what a 'Mere Christianity' is all about.

Just for the record, I am indeed a Christian. I do not see myself as an ordinary one though.

Greetings

This is my first post here. I wish I could say what this blog will be about but I am not really sure yet. However, I would like to write about my personal feelings and beliefs, so I guess this is what you will find here from now on.

Once I had a blog but I was not used to posting or anything. Hope I can get used to doing it.

As regards the language I am writing, well, everything here is still undefined and so is the language. This post was in English, maybe the next one is in Portuguese, who knows.


That is it for today.
I will try to come back tomorrow.